Why Did I Become the Villainess?

Chapter 344  : Confession

 I look at Rufus, take a pillow, and throw it to his face. I admit I quite feel happy knowing that I might be the reason why it happened. But I couldn't help but feel scared too. I don't want to make myself hope again for something that is not real.

 "Rufus, are you here to just gossip about what happened yesterday? If that is the case, can you please leave? I still need to take a rest."

 Rufus frowned when he heard what I said. "Rest? In the afternoon? You don't usually do that. Are you not feeling okay, Csille?" He then raises his hand and touches my forehead. "You're temperature seems normal. But why would you rest?"

 I rolled my eyes at him and slumped my body on my bed. "Do you know that Brother Pascal and I visited Mt. Carmen yesterday? We were supposed to return at night, but because I collapsed after reaching the top, we ended up spending our night there. It's the reason why I am also resting now. Although I feel okay now, Brother Pascal told me to take a rest for today."

 Rufus frowns. "It's probably because you were overworking yourself again." He then shakes his head. "You are really a stubborn gal. I already told you the other day to take a rest, but you still decided to work even if you're exhausted. Look what happened to you? Is it the reason why you were not in the Foundation? I thought you were just hiding from us again."

 I immediately stand up when I hear the word Foundation. I forgot about it! I don't even know if Brother Pascal informed my employees about what happened to me.  I stand up, and I am about to take my coat when Rufus stops me from walking. "And where do you think you are going? Don't tell me you're still planning to check on your Foundation despite your condition? Have you forgotten that you collapsed yesterday? Do you want me to call Doctor Pascal just so he could scold you?"

 I stop moving and heave a sigh. Before Brother Pascal sent me home, I had already made a promise to him that I wouldn't leave the house. If he knows I break my promise to him, I'm sure he will be mad at me again.  I look at Rufus and pout. "Rufus, can you do me a favor?"

 He raised his eyebrow at me. "Favor? If it's something related to my cousin, Prince Fraser, forget it. No matter how much you plead with me, I will not do it. I still couldn't believe that he had ignored her. That guy ha—"

 I shake my head and cut him off. "It's not about him. Why do you always think that everything will be about him? I know he is a Prince, but my life doesn't only revolves around him, okay?"

 Rufus scoff. He looked like he couldn't believe what I had just said. "Really? Do you want me to remind you what you have done for my cousin in the past?"

 I heave a sigh and avoid his eyes. This guy is really infuriating me. Why does he need to mention that? That is all in the past.  Does he really think I will still like Prince Fraser after what he has done to me? I know I still have feelings for him, but I'm not a masochist who will force herself on someone who doesn't appreciate my existence.

 I sit on my bed and cross my arms. "Can we not talk about that? The favor I am asking you is about the Foundation. I don't know if Brother Pascal informed my employees about what happened to me. So, can you please do me a favor and inform my employees about what happened. Also, please tell them that I will return to the Foundation tomorrow. So, they don't need to be worried."

 Rufus smirks at me. "Why are you avoiding talking about him?"

 I glare at him before I throw him a pillow. But the guy has quick reflexes. He immediately opens the door and hides behind it. I even hear him laugh after dodging the pillow. "I will be going then and about your favor. Don't worry. I will drop by the Foundation after this to inform your employees. So, you can rest well. I will see you tomorrow, purplany."

 I wasn't able to reply to him because he had just closed my door. I look at the closed door and sigh.  Tomorrow?  I smile bitterly. Tomorrow will be a rough day for Csille.

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 I woke up with a heavy heart this morning. Probably because I know what will await me on this day.  Lilla immediately rushes towards me when she sees me step inside the Foundation. She then checks my arms and my whole body. "Dame Csille, I heard from his highness, Prince Rufus, that you collapsed the other day. Are you okay now? Shouldn't you take some rest first?"

 I smile at Lilla. "I am okay now. Don't worry about me. Brother Pascal already gives me permission to work today with a reminder that I shouldn't overwork myself." I look around and find my employees looking at me worriedly. It seems like I really made them worry yesterday.  I clap my hand to get the attention of all my employees. "I know I made you all worried about me yesterday, and I apologize for that. As compensation, I will treat you all to a meal this lunch. We will have a little celebration for my return."

 All my employees cheered when they heard the good news. I just look at them with a satisfied smile on my face. I'm really grateful for them because even if I am not around, they are still doing their job. The Foundation is fortunate to find employees like them.  I just hope the person who will take over my position someday will also treat them the way I treat them.

 I feel someone tugs my hand. I look back and find Lilla looking at me anxiously. "Dame Csille, are you sure it is okay for you to do this? I mean, you just recovered. Is it really okay for you to move around? What if you collap—"

 I hold Lilla on her shoulders and shake her a little. "Lilla, haven't I told you that Brother Pascal already given me permission? Do you think he would allow me to work or to move around if he thinks it is not a good thing for me to do? So, don't worry, okay? I'm already okay. Also, can you do me a favor?"

 Lilla heaves a deep sigh before she nods her head. "What do you want me to do, Dame Csille?"

 "Can you please find me a restaurant where we can eat this lunch? Any restaurant will do as long as everyone will be satisfied. Send me a report once you have prepared everything. I will be working in my office now. Oh, by the way, if everyone looks for me, please tell them that I don't feel okay today and I won't be meeting anyone else."

 After saying a few words to my anxious employees, I head straight to my office. I frowned when I couldn't see any documents around my office. There are no documents on my table too.  "Where are the documents? Did they keep it away?" I whispered to myself.

 "Mister Bertrand, finish all the documents in your office, and even the urgent documents you need to work on were finished by him yesterday." I was startled when someone spoke behind me.  I look back and find Cairistine smiling at me. She then does a curtsy. "It was nice seeing you here, Dame Csille."

 I kneel down to level her sight. "It was great seeing you again, Cairistine. What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in school?"

 Cairistine takes my hand and puts it on her forehead. I flinched a little when I felt the hotness of her forehead. "You have a fever? But what are you doing here? You should rest. Where is your Mother?"

 Cairistine smiles sweetly at me. "I got so excited when I heard you have returned already. That's why I came here to check on you. I heard from Mother that you were sick. Are you okay now, Dame Csille?"

 I smile reassuringly at her before I gently caress her head. "I am okay now. Thank you for worrying about me. But now, you should be worried about your own health. You should return to your room and rest."

 But Cairistine shakes her head and holds on tightly to my hand. "But if I do, then I wouldn't be able to have a lunch with you. It's been a long time since I saw you, Dame Csille. I want to have a meal with you too. Can't I?"

 I heave a sigh. As much as I want to bring her, I don't think it will be a good idea. After all, she is still sick. I don't want to worsen her condition even more. However, I wasn't able to say something when Cairistine looked at me with her puppy eyes and pout.  "I promise I will take a rest after the meal. Just let me join you, Dame Csille."

 I heave a sigh. I know it is not a good idea to bring her with us, but I also couldn't bear to say no with that face.  "Okay, I will let you come."

 Even if I know, you might be the reason why I will end up in pain today.

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 We just end up eating in the restaurant when Cairistine suddenly wants to pee, and because her Mother, Mairenn was busy talking, I decided to accompany her to the restroom.

 "Dame Csille, why are your hands so cold? Are you sick again?" Cairistine asks anxiously.

 We were now on our way to the restroom. So, how can I not feel anxious? Even if I don't want to face it, I know I don't have a choice but to walk through it. Even if it means I will be breaking my heart with the process.

 I smile reassuringly at her. "I am okay. I just feel cold, but I'm okay." We stop in front of the restroom. "You should go inside then. I will be waiting for you here."

 Cairistine stares at me worriedly. She looks like she is hesitating to go inside. "Are you sure you are okay, Dame Csille?"

 I gently her head. "My dear, between the two of us, you are the one who has a fever. So, stop worrying about me. I am okay."

 Cairistine stares at me for a couple of seconds before she nods her head and gets inside the restroom.

 I heave a sigh and turn my back to the direction where we walk by earlier. Then I slowly approached it. There is a patio here that is only accessible by higher nobles and the royals.  I stop in front of the sliding door of the patio before I slowly slide the door. Enough for me to hear and see what is happening on the patio.

 And lo and behold, my two main leads are talking. Princess Paislee is looking at the beautiful cloudy sky while Prince Fraser stares intently at her.  I smile bitterly at myself. He never stares at Csille like that. He either glares at her or looks at her coldly.  "I like you," I heard Prince Fraser say softly. It's not that loud but enough for me and Princess Paislee to hear.  I looked at Princess Paislee, and just like how I had written it, she didn't hear anything. She looks back at Prince Fraser and frowns. "Your highness? Are you saying something? I was too preoccupied looking at the sky that I didn't hear what you said."

 Prince Fraser shakes his head. "Nothing." He then looks up at the sky too and sighs. "Sir Farren, do you like someone right now?" n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om

 I smile bitterly. Prince Fraser is having difficulty keeping his feelings for Princess Paislee at bay now. Sooner or later, all his secrets will be out in the open.  And I know more than anyone else what will happen after.