Chapter 70 - 70 - I Want To Find The Truth
When we arrived, grandfather was already asleep so we decided to talk to him in the morning.
We went to Caden's room so Jayden could talk to him. He took a deep breath when I opened the door.
"Sweetie?" I called.
I saw him on the bed and was preparing to sleep. He smiled when he saw me.
"Mommy! He yelled. Did you enjoy your date with Uncle George?" He asked.
"Sweetie, it's not a date. George is just a friend and I know you don't want another man for me. You only like your daddy, right?" I asked.
His face became sad and was about to cry.
"I miss daddy." He whispered.
I smiled and patted his head. Then the door opened. As Jayden came inside the room, Caden began crying. He rushed to the bed, sat down, worried for his son.
"Caden, son. Daddy is sorry. But can you please hear me out?" He asked.
To our surprise, Caden jumped into his father's arms. He was crying while hugging him. Looking at the men I loved the most made me really happy and emotional.
"I forgive you. Don't make mommy sad again! Don't look for another woman!" He said as if scolding his dad.
I guess he was also suppressing his feelings for the past few weeks. He was lonely and scared that we would never see his father again.
"No. Caden. I would never do that. Your mom is the only woman I love. Nobody could ever replace her in my heart. I can't live without your mom and you." Jayden said while hugging Caden.
We let Caden cry and when we felt like he's okay. Jayden told us what happened that night. It was actually not suitable for a kid to hear so Jayden was having a hard time explaining.
"I was drugged that night. I mean Amanda put something in the last drink she served me. When I stopped her from leaving, I thought it was you. Amanda confessed that when, you know. How should I explain it?" He scratched his head while looking at Caden.
Caden got annoyed and frowned.
"Daddy, if I am not allowed to hear it then don't explain anymore. I believe you! And that woman is a devil for trying to make you and mommy break up." Caden blurted.
I laughed. "Tell it to me once Caden sleeps." I said then turned to Caden. "Sweetie, you can sleep now. We'll leave once you sleep."
"No! Go to your room now! I can sleep alone. Daddy misses you and you miss him too. I play with daddy tomorrow. I love you mommy! I love you daddy!" He said while kissing us both on the cheek.
We were giggling when we left his room. We thought Jayden would have a hard time explaining and that Caden would not forgive him that easily but it was different from what we expected.
Jayden took my hand and as we walked towards our bedroom, we couldn't hide the happiness of each other.
We sat down on the couch so we could talk about Amanda.
"That night, when Amanda brought me to the guest room, she tried to seduce me. I'm sorry I was kissed by her but nothing really happened other than that. She said when she was kissing me, she thought I would keep on going but then I pushed her. I kept on saying your name, I was telling her how much I love you before I passed out. She was pissed and embarrassed so she took my clothes off and hers to make it look like we did something." He continued.
That woman! I want to slap her in the face if given a chance. How dare she touch my man!
"Peggy, I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for hating you. I'm sorry for forcing myself on you when I found you and Caden. I'm sorry I hurt you. Believe me I love you. I let my pride consume me. I'm sorry." He was almost whispering with his head down.
"Hey I forgive you. Let's not talk about the past anymore." I held his hand to assure him that he's forgiven.
He smiled then continued. "When you left three years ago, my life went downhill. I couldn't explain my feelings back then. I was cursing you almost everyday but at the same time I was worried. When I found out the reason why you left, I felt my world crumble. I hated you for not telling me but I hated myself for hating you. And the fact that your father might be the reason mom was dead, I know I wouldn't accept that easily and you know that, that's why you left. You knew my mother was my biggest weakness and you knew I might fall into another trauma if I found out. You're stronger than me Peg. You sacrificed your happiness for me. You carried and took care of Caden for three years without me. You are an amazing woman. And I would never forgive myself if you would be taken by another man."
I was listening to his long speech and just savoring the words he's telling me.
"Peg, I decided to look for your father but if only you would allow me. I wanted to know the truth and I'm ready to accept it." He suddenly said which made me anxious.
"Jayden, what if my father ordered to kill your mom or worse, he did it? What will happen to us?" I asked.
He turned to me and held both of my hands, pulling them closer to his lips. He gazed at me and kissed my hands.
"I love you Peg. No matter what. And we already know that possibility. But don't you think we could never move on if we don't know the truth? We will just keep on thinking, what if."
I looked at him and I saw that he already decided. I would be selfish to deny him the truth. He was looking for it since his mother died. I took a deep breath before I answered.
"I wanted you to know the truth as I wanted to meet my father. When the time comes that we find out our truths, remember I love you with all my heart and I trust your love."
He pulled me in his arms and kissed the top of my head.
"Thank you Peg."
We stayed like that for awhile. Embracing each other silently. Feeling each other's warmth and thinking of what might happen if we uncover the truth.